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  • Mood: Panic
  • Listening to: Screams in my head
  • Reading: Methuselah's Children
  • Watching: Tears roll down my face
  • Playing: With knives
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
Well, I'm back to being depressed... Now I have to talk to a new therapist for two hours every day for two weeks, People seem to be afraid of me, and every time I see one particular person look at me then look away when they notice I saw them, It brings even greater pain then before... I can hardly sleep or eat, and every day it seems that I end up breaking down and crying my eyes out... Is this what I deserve? I don't think so, but no one is willing to take the steps to ensure my recovery... They do a little bit to help, and then they stop when I am almost better... Is it some kind of game their playing? Is it funny to them, to see me struggle and feel this pain? I... I... I hope that I'm wrong, but I almost always end up being right when it comes to these types of things

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Lucas Alexander Chambers
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my life in the begining was never perfect... especially now, when everyone in my school seems to know im bisexual... and most of them call me the usual collection of derogatory terms... which has made me threaten to kill them in the worst ways possible... but then they just laugh... the only people who make sure i don't are my friends... although i have my friends here on Deviant, it is a hard and difficult life... before, back when i had less friends that fingers on my hands, i tried to kill myself multiple times... but each time, i could not do it... but now that is no longer the person i see in the mirror... i now see a person... who is rough around the edges... but if you are able to get past that, you can see how kind and gentle i really am... unless you are an insolent fool and a piece of usless matter that is worthy of the most painful and longest death imaginable... but that is not who i am anymore... although sadistic thoughts do hold an appeal... i resist temptation... although it is... difficult... but now i have become something better... something that stalks the fearful in the night... and haunts the corners of their dreams... because i would rather be feared and left alone than be taunted and laughed at... and this went on for quite some time... until I felt the threat of impending insanity looming over me... and even with all my counter measures, it did not really help.


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:iconmarmeladepro:
And thanks again  for the +fav  Hug :happybounce: Hug 
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Skie2 Mar 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You are very welcome
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Thanks for watching us Hug 
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Skie2 Feb 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You are very welcome. I love your cos-plays, especially Apple Jack and Rainbow Dash
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Yeah Hug 

and we will back in appledash soon :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce:  (not sure but probably we will have another mlp day on may Wink/Razz )
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Skie2 Feb 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Yay... i can't wait to see the pics
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Thanks for the favs<3333333333
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Skie2 Oct 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you are very welcome
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Thanks so much for faving! :iconbark-plz:
PS ~ sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you I have been overseas for a number of weeks
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